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I hate the feeling you get when you're SO upset that you don't even know what to do with yourself.. Yup, I have that feeling right now. I have food and a drink in front of me and I feel hungry and thirsty then I look at it and say no, I can't because I really don't have an appetite for it anymore. And I don't have an appetite because I'm in such a depressive mood. I have been all weekend. I was enjoying my weekend at home but I still felt REALLY down. And I hardly ate all weekend DUE to it. I just can't help it. I completely lose my appetite. I can't stand someone being mad at me for no reason or for something I didn't do. I don't DESERVE to be ignored because someone is mad at ME for no reason. It is REALLY unfair. This whole situation is unfair. You told me something that you did that made me REALLY angry and you tried to say sorry and hugged me and said sorry again but I knew it wasn't THAT big of a deal and I knew that I couldn't stay mad at you forever because of it and within ten minutes I forgave you and everything was okay. But YOU.. You hold a grudge against me like I killed something close to you. I simply complain about something and BAM, silent treatment for so far six days.. Wow. I hold a grudge for ten minutes because you do something I'm not going to mention and you hold a SIX day grudge because I complained.. I don't understand you or your mind or what goes through your mind. But seriously, I don't deserve this whatsoever. You make it seem like I'm the bad guy and you always try and put everything on me. Well it's not fair and you're not fair to me.. I remember when you used to say stuff like "You're Beautiful" or "You mean everything to me" or "I would be lost without you.." You hardly ever say stuff like that to me anymore, you hardly EVER kiss me anymore, and yeah sure you will say we kiss ALL the time but that's because I KISS YOU, you haven't kissed ME for months, you don't hug me, you're always pushing me away and I can't stand it anymore. Let's trade spots for a while, so you can honestly feel how I feel.. I'll get mad at you for say simply not answering me when I talk to you.. That's how little of something you get mad at me for. Its UNFAIR and immature.

Hope you start to realize what you do to me..